i'm desperate, but am i that desperate?

i'm thinking about getting out of here,
desperately so, that it might appear to karen,
and might be my reality,
that i'm transferring my affection to karen to get out of here.
we've been down this path before, with corinne.

the difference for me apart from whether i love karen,
is that our kids are involved
--and chloe has four years of high school,
and wes--well, who knows?

this may be wes' pupose in my life,
that karen and i are never fully separated.

now, do i still love karen?
can i see us ten, twenty, thirty, even forty years hence?
can i see us together where i might otherwise fall apart?